Hey everyone, I’m back!
So I disappeared for a while without any explanation – Actually, that’s a lie; I did write one really long moany blog post explaining why I had to go, but I deleted it within a few minutes of hitting the ‘Publish’ button. I think it got a total of something like 30 views, so I apologise to those 30 people who read that incredibly terribly written post. I was in a bad place at the time. I wasn’t happy with myself, others weren’t happy with me and I didn’t enjoy blogging anymore. Writing for this blog felt like a chore rather than a hobby, so I knew I had to stop. I felt like this blog wasn’t for me anymore.
I took some time out to think about what I wanted in life and to relax during the holiday season, and to be honest, I didn’t miss blogging, which is really sad. I missed when I enjoyed writing and when I didn’t feel pressured to make sure I had at least 3 or 4 posts out a week, and that’s not how I wanted it to be. I put too much stress on myself trying to make this blog ‘great’ and interesting for readers, but I’ve since realised this blog should primarily be for me. I’d constantly be trying to come up with blog post ideas just so something would be on Just Buttons, but the post content lost it’s quality and I could tell what I was writing was crap. So I had a long think about what I should do, and whether I’d come back to Just Buttons.
The past few weeks I’ve felt much better in myself and I actually felt like I wanted to pick up my laptop and write, which was kind of exciting! I felt that spark in this hobby again, but I didn’t want to just dive right into it again in case it happened all over again, so I waited. It wasn’t until I was speaking to my brother-in-law’s girlfriend, Becca, last night that I decided to start it up again. Truth be told, I didn’t know Becca even knew about my blog, so I was kind of embarrassed to start off with, but she told me how much she loved reading my posts and I should start writing again. That’s when I said to myself, ‘Yes I’m going to write again’. So thank you Becca for giving me that bit of motivation to get back into Just Buttons!
So I’m sure some of you would like to know where I plan to go from here. Well the first thing I’m going to say is I plan to put no pressure on myself to make sure I have content every few days. Sometimes I may have a few blog posts a week, sometimes I’ll have a few blog posts a month, it’s all going to depend on how I’m feeling at the time, so sorry for the future inconsistency of posts, but that’s what I’m going to need to do to make sure the blog content is better quality.
Social media… So I’ll announce now that I have deleted the Just Buttons Facebook page, because it wasn’t really doing anything, it was just to have ‘another platform’ that others have, but I want to try and stop trying to be someone else, I’m going to do whatever I want to do. I still have Twitter and Instagram, I find these better to use for being social, but unfortunately I probably won’t be very social on them and here’s why; I love chatting to others and getting to know people but I have severely bad social anxiety. I read things at least 20 times when messaging someone to make sure what I’ve written is right and there isn’t anything in there that could offend people. I get worried that people will think I’m weird and won’t like me. I need to work on my anxiety problems, so for now, please don’t be offended if I don’t talk much on social media. I appreciate all of you so much for reading my blog, always remember that, I just struggle communicating.
The content… There is going to be a change to the content on this blog. Like I’ve already said, the amount of posts will go down, but that’s so the content is better quality and not written just to get something on my blog. Before I felt like half of the content I wrote was so samey and it was like I was getting all of my ideas from others, but that’s going to stop. The content on this blog is going to be more me and what I enjoy. I’ve recently been enjoying creating paper crafts, so I’ll be writing a few crafty posts. My son is now 8 months old so I think a baby update is due, along with more baby posts. The rest of my content is going to be what ever the hell I want to write about, it’s going to be everything and anything! I don’t want to give myself a ‘genre’ of blogging as that doesn’t suit me – so you’ll get a range of content like beauty, fashion, baby, parenting, crafting, cooking, travel, shopping hauls and quite literally anything I want to write about. You’ll have plenty of stuff to read soon.
So yeah… The blog is going to be back up and running very shortly. I want to thank everyone who has stuck by me in this long unexplained break, you’re all amazing. If you’re new, hello! Thanks for stopping by and I hope you enjoying reading the new content which will give you more of an idea of who I am.
I’ll see you all again shortly!